Divine Downloads

Over the past few years, I’ve been going through a period of doubt about life. I was in turmoil inside. I was drowning in depression. I felt shaky and afraid. Too many things were happening that left me unsure about how to cope. Many days, I could barely get out of bed…and some days I just didn’t. I cried every day for months over the past three years… and I felt as if I was living in a fog, watching myself from the outside. I came to a place where I felt that I was losing myself and I had nothing to hold onto, except God. In life, you eventually get to a place where you realize that no one can give you the answers except a Power Higher than yourself. No one else can save you, except you working with God. And so, I sought God, as my raft and my foundation. Every morning when I opened my eyes, my first thought was, “God, are you there?” And I’d write the words I felt pouring into me – words that were simple, spiritual, with a little ratchet sprinkled in here and there. It was weird at first, to communicate with Her…or Him in a more authentic way, but I’ve always talked to God. This new type of connection and conversation was just more true for me – with no filter either way. I was used to “inspiring” people with words of hope, but how do you share hope when you don’t feel it? You download it from an energy source bigger than yourself, and you inspire people by sharing your vulnerability and truth. So, when I felt pain, I shared it, when I felt strength, I shared it. When I felt doubt, I shared it. When I felt hope I shared that too. I hope you’re inspired by my Divine Downloads and that they help you to listen to and communicate with God, listen to yourself, share your truth with yourself and others, release judgement and labels, and allow yourself to rest in a Divine space of strength, compassion and love as you heal and transform.