The Inward Journey
It may seem paradoxical that the fastest route to connection with others is to go
inward. Nonetheless, it’s true. It is through our inner landscape that we are offered
a direct line to the whole complex web of life. The network of connection we inhabit
reminds me of mycelium, the delicate white strands of fungi, commonly known as
mushrooms, beneath the ground. “This fine web of cells courses through virtually all
habitats … unlocking nutrient sources stored in plants and other organisms.”1 The
invisible matrix of interconnections between us is demonstrated in every ecosystem
on earth. We are born of it, and from it we are continually fed and nourished. Separate
from it, we would not exist. And yet, our greatest challenge is to know that we are
integral with all that is. It is the illusion of separation that both proffers us the greatest
individual glory and invites us to perpetrate the most heinous of acts. But connection
redeems us, offering fulfillment and a whole universe of untapped resources.
Ancestral Wisdom
The more we learn about nature, Earth’s myriad ecosystems, and the imperative
of biodiversity, the clearer it becomes that human oversight regarding our
interconnectedness is the root cause of our burgeoning woes. When we know our
interconnectedness intimately, we walk on the earth with reverence. We hold one
another with the understanding that you are another me. Earth-centered, native
1 Paul Stamets, Mycelium Running (Berkeley: Ten Speed Press, 2005).
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cultures have revered nature and our interdependence with all things for eons. Their
worldviews hold all things as sacred and interwoven. In earth-based cultures, the
elevation of individuals was due to their prowess within the context of serving their
community, say as a skilled hunter, medicine-herbalist, or talented shaman. From our
Western vantage point, we can only imagine what it may be like to live knowing no
separation from the web of life. Yet this ancestral wisdom pulls at us to remember
ourselves as part of the whole.
As radical as it may seem, science has now proven our ancestors correct. We live
in a world of seamless connectivity. When we experience the potent connections that
start with our inner world, we amend the soil for our own growth. In this chapter, our
exploration focuses on self-connection, the crux of the inward journey. Metaphorically,
it reminds me of a stone dropping into the mirrored surface of a pond. The deeper the
stone descends, the wider the ripples of understanding spread. So it is with us. Deep
self-connection affords us a wide range of insights via our expanded awareness. It
gives us access to our hearts and minds, to intuitive awakening and creativity, to one
another, and to spirit. Self-connection is also the basis from which we can skillfully
navigate the world around us, from clear communication to conscious choice making.
Inevitably, as we descend through the layers of self-awareness, our assumptions
about ourselves and the world will surface. It can feel like taking off outer garments and
regarding them quizzically. To look objectively at our personal habits and tendencies
can be disorienting, like walking through a hall of mirrors. It also can be amusing or
frightening, or inconsequential. No matter how much meditation or introspection you
may have done, there is more to garner from the inward journey. I invite you to try
a new approach. This isn’t about overcoming the obstacles to inner peace or slaying
the demons of the monkey mind. It’s about letting your self-awareness drop even
further inside, allowing every passing thought, feeling, and notion to be seen and
acknowledged along the way. To do so is the inception of deep states of acceptance
and inclusion, necessary qualities for both inner peace and transcendent awareness.
They also lay the foundation for connection and understanding with others. To look
inward first is the way to mend disconnection from ourselves and each other. It is also
the path to liberation.
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Acceptance as Path
Acceptance as path opens the door to radical aliveness. It is an internal shift
of perspective that allows room for whatever arises in us to simply be there.
Acceptance promulgates a wide array of possibilities for living and working together.
Simultaneously, it neutralizes the generally held assumption that there is an allknowing,
external judge of what is “right and wrong” or “good and bad” outside of
us. Our own internalized judge perpetuates this insidious premise, bestowing the
appropriate punishment or reward depending on what we “deserve.” Such core beliefs
hobble us with guilt and shame and undermine our self-esteem. They separate us from
ourselves and divide us from each other. The reorientation to self-acceptance relieves
us of the moralistic burden of judgment. With self-acceptance, real change is possible.
Our return to self-connection, seeded by deep self-acceptance, is free of judgment. This
freedom is the ground for personal sovereignty, for becoming the leaders of our own
lives. It inoculates the shift germinating inside from fear of judgment to empowered
action. Acceptance is like an enzyme that metabolizes the anxiety produced from the
familiar, authoritarian meritocracy. With self-acceptance, we become free to share
what is gritty and authentic of ourselves with others.
If going inward as a practice is new to you, and even if not, the beguiling ways
of your innate self-protection mechanism, also known as the ego, will likely want
to meddle in your adventure. No problem. This is to be expected. As we build up
the nutrients of our internal resources and establish a new ground of being inside,
whatever shows up is responded to with acceptance and compassion. This is about
making room for all of it. Everything is included; everything is greeted with respect.
As we learned when we were very young, the best way to chase monsters away
is to turn on the light. Simply by shining the light of our awareness on what clings
below the surface often frees it to morph right then and there. Awareness with
acceptance also empowers us with choice. We are free to face and even befriend that
particular thought, fear, or feeling, whereas to keep it hidden in the dark only drains
our precious internal resources while feeding its influence over us from the shadows.
Self-awareness, as with information in general, is power.