"Remember that you are not alone, I'm still here in spite of everything. It is here that we find heaven and not after our death. Heaven is not a place but a state of being and a state of attitude. I am willing to try to show you the heaven that I have in me.
It's in self-love that I begin to find my comfort. You may need to find yours in loving yourself more. Not in a selfish way, but in attitude and principles. It definitely feels great when you are true to yourself. Change in attitude about you will make yourself a more lovable person in turn. I truly believe that God speaks through me when I say that you need to forgive yourself first in order to forgive others. It is in forgiveness that you may love, therefore you need to ask, you need to listen, believe, have faith, and God will definitely deliver.
I'm just a peaceful servant, messenger in this world of beings. We are all like God, and only you have the power to see the God within. Remember that there is no yesterday nor tomorrow, there is only now. You have the choice to go from NO WHERE to NOW HERE. Do not EGO yourself, do not Edge God Out of the true person that you are, the true soul that I know. From nowhere to now here is only a change in the wording, but nevertheless a choice that we all have, no matter the mistakes that we have committed. God, your true self, your Divine Source, will only see what you do now. Be true to your moment, time is just something that we were taught to believe as man and woman. Just because everyone believes doesn't make it so. What is true is the breath you take in each moment and the choices you make in that particular moment.
In the same manner that two soul mates love unconditionally, you don't need to die to live in heaven or in a state of heaven. Try to forgive yourself and wake up to a new you. You need to find in you the oneness that brings this world together. You need to align your life with the true essence of your being. I have experienced your true essence, and let me tell you that you are beyond beautiful. All I can do for you is to allow this true divinity to speak and act through me in order to give you the courage you need to become your own champion."