The Rose of Baghdad

Chapter Twelve

Our Feelings can be quite powerful

The journey that I am on has been a difficult one and may well remain so. It is for everyone although for some it is harder than others.

Ascension can be likened to fighting your way off the earth. There will be many battles that will confront you. You will just finish one battle and another part of your early conditioning will rise up to confront you yet again. You will need help, but in all fairness the universe will respond by placing the help somewhere in your path. The universe is on your side, it actually wants you to succeed, so don’t hesitate to ask for help. Your guides will know what you are thinking and what you are feeling at any one time. They know it all. And be particularly aware of your dreams.

It is my fondest hope that most of you will not suffer the way I have, by the loss of a child. For many it will be as simple as addressing your fears, providing you are aware of what your fears are.

Some of mine were from a past life, some from me forming an erroneous opinion at an early age, others were inherited from relatives or peer groups. Most people have a fear of psychiatrists but it may be worth considering if you undertake this process because there will be times when you need support.

I saw one briefly after I had cancer, a good one. There are many of them, they may be of great value in identifying underlying fears of which you are not aware. A case in point for me was my being beheaded in a previous life and developing a fear of death, although perhaps a psychic would be more in order there, or a regression under hypnosis.

Hopefully some of you are not in such a devastating rush to leave the earth as I am, given the life I’ve had. I fully understand that it was my own soul that elected to undergo this life and these circumstances, as yours did your own life, but coming back to undergo perhaps similar events again, raises the question: ‘What the hell for?’

If you are happy to take your time and begin the process over a few lifetimes, I wish you luck.

I suppose the most difficult thing to accept is that after plodding along through life thinking that you have some control of your life, there comes a time where it becomes blatantly obvious that you have no control whatsoever, over anything. I blindly kept walking through my life with only a whisper in my ear, a curiosity about how everything worked. But people began turning up at certain times that led me in certain directions, I guess it was not all that bad until I started meditating, after that, slowly but surely your guides will engineer your life to present your fears to you. This is necessary; fear cannot exist in higher dimensions.

In higher dimensions, it is possible to create many things, virtually anything you desire after you undergo a healing from the life you have just completed. But even after creating some type of perfection for yourself, perhaps after a century or two or three, time is relative to the space you are in, ultimately you will begin to long for a more complete knowledge of the full extent of existence and even of God, so you will elect to be back here to complete your evolution.

At this point I have been asked by my guides to mention two aspects of the process that become increasingly important as time goes on.

Valerie my own teacher was fond of saying to me; ‘Honour yourself and you will be honoured.’ After I had received the money from the sale of our house, I was a little complacent with my thoughts about money. I put it in the bank of course, but I do recall my cousin Diane remarking at one point that if your fear was great enough, they (Your guides), may end up taking everything you had. And that is exactly what happened. Which was enough to convince me how powerful our fears are. My fear of having no money, resulted many times in the complete loss of all of my work, the phone just stopped ringing.

This in effect, over a few years taught me two things, firstly that all our emotions create. In this universe cause and effect control everything. Within us there can only be ‘love or fear’ as underlying motivations; they are the two emotions that we emit that have the greatest potential to either bring us undone or lift our vibrations much higher. Fear will create a negative event in our lives the quickest and bring us undone without fail. The emotion that sits at the top of the list and is born of love is compassion. And if it is a closer position to the divine that you seek, along with meditation, compassion will raise your vibratory rate faster than anything else. Those who appear less fortunate than us, although their soul may have chosen those events, when we see them in need we must help if it is within our power.

And secondly it showed me that we have minimal control over the material world we are in. As a result of my fear, as time went on, I found myself spending as little on myself as possible, living on the bare minimum I could spend on either food or clothes. But thankfully I eventually got to a point where I began to listen to Valerie’s words, since it appeared that nothing was going to change until I did. I did begin to honour myself and I began to find, little by little, that if you do buy the things that you need, and you do trust the universe, then the universe responds to that trust by allowing money to flow to you again; to make room for more money to flow to you, you have to let go of the money that you have.

Also within this particular lesson, is an issue of ‘the inner child’ within all of us. Life without ‘fun’ is not life at all, there has to be fun in your life. You should incorporate fun into the work you do and no one should be doing a job that they do not enjoy. There is not one person on earth that should not have incorporated fun into their very livelihood; it should not be a commodity that one can purchase after the end of a day’s work.

Another thing to consider on this path is the issue of self-discipline. Human beings require self-discipline if we are to succeed in any direction. If we do not have discipline, firstly, various substances will take hold of us and dominate our lives. This is mainly due to becoming ‘locked’ in the lower chakra just beneath our navel, which controls the body itself and automatic functions.

Energy follows thought and where you focus your attention is where your energy will go. The best chakra to work with is the Sixth, the forehead, or third-eye chakra because this is the one which controls all the other charkas and holds the potential for the most power and wisdom. But again it is wise before doing any work with chakras to do some reading and work out the best course for you.

For whatever reason when I was younger I never had a problem with discipline. Martial arts practice can sometimes be arduous and even painful, but I was never tempted to give up. So when it came time to meditate much later, I needed to find the answers to life to such an extent that some days even four hours of meditation presented no obstacle for me. There are some that say that it is not necessary to meditate for more than twenty minutes daily, but given the extent of our karmic debt, and the words of a Master twenty years of practice, for three hours a day, to achieve some form of total freedom I would suggest you do as much as you can cope with.