My path
Introduction
First I would like to explain to you my own path of healing, which started around the age of 50. That’s when my 11 year old son told me: “Congratulations mum, you are now a half-life old!” That was such a nice and empathic sentence which led me to rethink my life and my purpose. Around that age I had a long lasting marriage of 25 years and two gorgeous sons in the age of 11 and 16. I was a medical doctor for over 25 years and had my own office for about 20 years. I still had my parents filled with life force and everything in my life was really successful, so from the outside I seemed to have a dream life.
With 52 I had a hip surgery for a severe osteoarthritis, which allowed me to take some weeks off for recovery. This was the moment when everything in my life changed and led me to search for real health and the real purpose in my life. I reflected back the hardship and struggles that I had gone through in my life and from this moment on I tried to rediscover my flow, my freedom and my personal meaning of life.
In this first chapter, I will share my personal journey of hardship and struggle, providing you with insight into my life circumstances that prompted a significant shift in my thinking.
In the second chapter, I will discuss my experiences as a medical doctor, highlighting what I learned from examining the similar stories of my patients. I will explore the spiritual dimensions I identified in relation to specific organ illnesses. Through this process, I began to understand the deeper spiritual significance of these conditions and how the negative manifestations we refer to as diseases can be better understood by considering their psychological and spiritual aspects.
In the third chapter I will try to share with you general insights on the path to health and discuss basic attitudes and prerequisites to life.
In the fourth chapter, I will share some of my personal techniques for healing yourself from illness and embracing a happier, healthier life. I will introduce you to nine spiritual methods that can help you break free from your struggles and ultimately enhance your well-being.
In the fifth section, I’ll take it a step further by offering my personal advice for you as a healer and therapist. I’ll provide you with nine additional healing techniques designed to help guide your own patients toward better health and spiritual growth.
Finally I will share some final remarks why even a highly spiritual person will get sick from time to time and I will share the art of not taking everything too serious in life.
Each chapter will be accompanied by one of my own poems. My hope is that this book will help you tap into a spiritual dimension within yourself and empower you to remain present in each moment. Every chapter and poem is crafted to elevate your emotional vibration, guiding you to a higher state of well-being. It is only at these higher, more fulfilling emotional frequencies that we can distance ourselves from our problems and discover the solutions. This is the path to achieving our full spiritual health in this life.
Recognize my health condition
There was a time in my life, when more and more small health issues summoned up. At first I even didn’t notice them, but after years they showed up more and more. At the age of 50, I suffered from the following conditions: Recurrent headaches, skin rashes and itching, recurrent viral infections, asthma, bacterial pneumonia, gastric reflux, chronical constipation, recurrent urogenital infections, benign tumor in the breast, recurrent joint pain of fingers, toes, ankles, knees, hips, shoulders, elbows, cervical spine, lower back, weight gain and the list could go on.
At the same time, life struck me also mentally, after many years of exhausted work and meaning to realize my dreams, but in fact realizing mostly the dreams of the people around me. I got more and more depressed and felt sad, tired and was impatient and aggressive with my kids and my husband. Further I suffered from sleep deprivation, did not enjoy being with friends any more, and I was feeling alone and unworthy.
All of those conditions didn’t come at once, but they came one after another and for over 10 years I haven’t felt healthy and vibrant any more. It seemed as if those illnesses would chase each other and the moment one condition disappeared, another one showed up. I was more and more discouraged and didn’t know why I haven’t been able to feel healthy any more.
I did what many people do, I became an expert in finding excuses why I was not feeling well, so I found the following explanations:
• “It must be because of my age, now with over 50 every woman struggles with hormones and suffers from menopausal disturbances, it is normal to have sleep problems, sweating, joint pain, hair loss, depression and bladder infections.”
• “Of course it is no wonder I am not well, because of my stress as a doctor in my own office with more than 30 patients a day. Who can be in balance in such a job? Doctors and therapists are among the professions most affected by burnout and depression.”
• “I have not only a fulltime job but also a family with two teenage sons and a husband who is working a lot and has not much time to look after the kids. So of course it is my job as a mother to organize everything for the family and kids, to give them their support they need and to prioritize the children, before I can take some time for myself.”
• “I used to do some work-out and sports for my body, but with my job and family I am too tired to go for a run or do some gymnastics, my muscles are weaker, but this must be normal in my age and will be getting worse in older age.”
• “For some years I ate a lot of meat because I wanted my body to get enough proteins, then suddenly I didn’t know any more which diet is right for me. So then I felt I should follow a vegetarian diet, soon after I even ate only vegan. I actually had a healthier body with vegan diet, but I often didn’t have the time to find the right food and cook it a healthy way.”
• “For many years I was such a supportive person, I did everything for everybody. I enjoyed that they were grateful for my job but I lost myself and emptied my energy levels over the years. So no wonder my body just got tired and empty. I didn’t look after myself but cared for the wellbeing of everyone else around me.”
As I know now, all these explanations and excuses actually were wrong beliefs which I held in my mind that kept me from changing myself. By then I wasn’t ready for a change of those wrong beliefs, until suddenly my body forced by me to stop everything and gave me the chance to just slow down in order to find myself again.
In the age of 52, my right hip had to be replaced due to a severe osteoarthritis. I was at the point where I could not put on my own socks or shoes, because I couldn’t bend my hip that far. At this point there was no other option than to have a hip surgery. In this moment in time my life changed completely! Following the surgery, I had the first month in many years when I was forced to do nothing. I couldn’t do any work for my practice, for my home or for my children and for the first time I just had to focus on my wellbeing and health. That was the moment I realized that I needed to make a spiritual change in my life to reclaim my own power. Only by being strong in my own power can I truly offer help to others.
Poem: Realizing your focus
Nobody is listening
To the cry of your soul
Great world is turning
You’re hiding in a hole
Busy and productive
You’re running in a wheel
Until a tear will stop you
And suddenly you feel
You ask yourself the meaning
When silence speaks so loud
The first time you remember
What you came here about
To find your very purpose
Of never ending life
To be as no one else can
And never stop to thrive