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Don’t forsake me. It’s time to wake me. Deep down inside. The place where I hide. (08-07-2005)
When looking for the other half of you, look no further than yourself. Your soul is within, on the inside, not outside. I called the book ‘Over the Rainbow’ because they say, at the end of the rainbow is a pot of gold. Over the rainbow, you will find your very own soul. We are moving from feeling alone, to knowing others have experiences to share, similar to ours. We are raising our vibrations, a reminder to becoming who we are. Speaking up about my past experiences, with those I love most, my family, has enabled me to get to the place where our soul resides. Hopeful, my soul, became hopeful when this happened. I was unknowingly hiding from myself and my soul. Removing the emotional behaviour has freed me from the mental bondage I didn’t know I was in. I am in the present, having let go of my past emotional behaviours. I have been clearing the emotional and mental clutter. I have found the breath of fresh air; I didn’t know I longed for. I didn’t know I was looking for my soul. I feel as if, I have been sleep-walking. The more comfortable you are, in your own skin, and remember this life, the more your soul will be able to help you. It has helped me in writing this book. I have been able to understand, what I have gone through. It wasn’t until, the understanding surfaced, I got to know, I was the first to reach this place of awakening.
My problems occurred when I lied, or felt unable to tell the truth. When someone else, mentally, physically or emotionally bullied me, I felt unable to speak out. The lies started the energetic change. The vibrations became heavy and my soul trying to reach me, was pushed away by me, because of the feelings creating the heavy vibrations. They did not force me to remember, what I tried to resist; they placed reminders in my path. I might hear the same conversation, spoken by different people, for example. Or being reminded of an incident that I was trying to avoid. These are ways, Hopeful called me, home. When I first opened the door, it seemed overwhelming. There were memories of experiences that have happened. I felt resistance when opening some of these doors. I was scared of the feeling, attempting to anticipate what might be behind the door. Using breathing exercises helped me, calm the panic I felt. I acknowledged it and when it persisted, I allowed myself the time to approach the situation calmly. Sometimes, I pushed myself, allowing the feeling to overwhelm me. I attempted to look at it from a different perspective. Rather than push into it, I thought about removing all the things I knew it not to be. This reduced the feeling of being overwhelmed. The more I removed, the more manageable it became. When the feeling diminished, I no longer felt the resistance. Thus, by using breathing exercises, I was able to manage how my body and mind responded physically to the feelings and emotions; oxygen was needed to encourage this physically. When I was encouraged to talk about this in my twenties, I had no breathing exercises to help me cope. No one could do this for me; I was the one who needed to do it for myself. My mind and body needed time to adjust to the changes.
There are secrets that just aren’t worth keeping. They bound me, emotionally and mentally. They kept me from myself. They prevented me from being with my own soul. When we lie to ourselves, we add feelings, the vibrations, that keep us from uniting; the thoughts about myself, that these feelings created, were what kept me from myself. Embarrassment kept me from where I needed to be. Take a deep breath and feel what it might be like to embrace your own soul. Is that not something wanted and needed?
Having not felt separate, when I was younger, and then feeling connected again; I was able to remember I am part of the whole. When I re-joined with my ‘younger self’, my soul, I began to understand I was being ‘born’ and was thus separating from the ‘womb’ that is the whole. The ‘soul’ I had previously, was that of ‘The Lord’s’. We share their being, until we are able to prepare ourselves, for our own being. By releasing the emotional hurt, I was able to show, I was no longer a child who needed to be attached, to their parent. Not only did I detach from my earthly parents, emotionally, but I was able to remove what was holding me back, from being ‘born again’, into my whole being. It has taken about a year, for my soul to be with me, to understand the enormity of what has happened.
Keywords:
Spiritual, soul, destiny, awakening, born-again, emotional well-being, self-help.
Book categories:
Body, Mind & Spirit: Supernatural; Religion: Spirituality; Self-help: General.
Keynote:
We are born with The Lord’s soul; when we show we are no longer a child, we are ‘born again’, into our whole being.