Becoming Immaculate
From Abused to Zen in One Lifetime
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Why are you buying books about a spiritual journey? What is the end-game you are hoping to find? I am asking because if you don’t know, stop your journey right here. Park your spirit like so many have before. If you can’t handle the fact that this journey is actually to a destination, get off of the path. Make way for those who truly want to find their Holy Grail.
You can’t believe there is an actual destination. This is why so many of you are stuck. You are reading the right books, following the best gurus and doing the most tried and tested meditations. You are moving out to nature and emptying your house of excess garbage. You are feeling divine as you are doing so much of the work necessary to get here. But where is here?
When I give you the answer to that question, you call me a false prophet and tell me that I can’t be real. How can that be? I am real. I am right here and exactly what I claim to be. I can’t lie to myself. I work for God, I cannot lie to him. If there is anyone else you can lie to, it is not my boss.
Why are you on this journey if you don’t think it has a place to land? There is a final destination and when you get here, you know it.
It wasn’t until I went looking back at my life and I realized I was no longer in “search mode.” I didn’t even realize at some point over the last seven years, the search was over. I was at the place I was looking for; I didn’t realize I stopped looking for the “next thing.”
Because I don’t care what you think about me, I am fearlessly sharing. I know that once the silent workers see how pushing beyond fear is all they need to do, they will be as loud and proud as I am.
The journey begins when you stop looking at others as if they are doing something the wrong way. There is no wrong way. There are no rules. They came with a plan of their own, just like you. Leave them be and look at your journey. What are you not doing that they are triggering in you? It is never about them.
Do not judge those on this journey, bless them. Clear the path so the light can shine through. I hear we are needed desperately on this planet right now.
I had to drop the entire victim story of my 30+ years to move on. Then I had to experience another 30 years of stories that I had to move beyond. The difference between me and you is I moved out of each story when I knew it was over. How I felt told me it was over. Icky feelings = action required. It was simple.
We don’t listen to ourselves. We defer our lives by handing them over to others “who know better.” How can another human being who just like you is living inside of their skin bag trying to figure it all out, know what is best for you? Think about this. Your mother who merely carried a seed into a full-grown plant can’t know what is stirring madly inside of your heart. No one can know this but you.
This is what my story is about. I have been unsettled my entire life as I have known it can be great. I kept moving through all of the other stories until they turned to muck. When it became too difficult to trudge through the sludge, I felt off. I would get sick. I knew I was out of alignment. I knew when to pull the trigger and move beyond a story.
It took a lifetime of personal experiences to get me here, but I chose my way here. When I stopped making choices that were for everyone else, I started to feel good. When I said ‘no’ to the things I always said ‘yes’ to, I felt delicious. How I felt when I treated myself well became all I knew how to do. If I treated you good, neglecting me, I felt horrible inside.
This is all an inside job. When you turn around your intention from always doing for others, and first love yourself, you find a well of love and abundance within your soul. When you start with you and follow your heart, it leads you into your lane. Once you walk for a moment in the lane that feels perfectly designed for you, you will feel off when you slip out of it.
Feeling good will start to be important to you. You will realize when you feel good, you have much more love and attention to pour on others who need your light. You see the impact you have on others as they are drawn to your light.
I could not have known that turning over every rock, and looking under every leaf would take me to a final destination. When I realized I was no longer searching, I surrendered and said, “what’s next?” That was when I was introduced to an idea I didn’t have in my world. I found out where all of the magic and wonderment that helped me find the strength to walk this path came from. I found out that I was never alone. That is why I always felt so good. I was with my best friend and I was my entire life. I hadn’t been formally introduced until I moved to the Oregon Coast.
That was when I met God.
The road to enlightenment merely starts here. You get here by putting one foot in front of the other, one step at a time.
From someone who deeply hated herself for over thirty years of her life, I am sharing my story.
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Cari has been on a wild ride that started over seven years ago. As a human, she has been on a non-stop relentless search for something she couldn't see. It can't be seen, but she has felt it her entire life. After her daughter delivered a box of belongings from her dad's house, she realized she has always been a writer.
In the box were handwritten notes, journals, and stacks of computer feed paper; it's all documented. She wrote everything down. Every deep, dark, suicidal thought. Every desperate cry to find her way out. She didn’t realize she wrote it all down.
As she says:
I am not there now. I followed the "gut-tug" and I found my way to where we want to go while we are on this planet. There is a final destination. Something I couldn't see is where I live today.
If you cannot believe it, if you say it can't be so, then why exactly would you be on a spiritual "journey?" A journey is on the way to something. You thought you would merely climb a ladder into the clouds that keeps on going. No! There is a place we want to end up while we are still breathing.
How did I find it? Because I have been searching my entire life. I learned how to be silent to allow it to show up. One step at a time, it all showed up. That search has brought me through relationships, moves, careers, friends, and family. I have been an evolving machine since I was a child. Nothing made sense until I got through the stories I came here to finish living.
The difference between me and you - I say yes to the unknown. I say yes to my higher self.
After leaving my ex, my career, my daughter, my animals; I embarked on a mission of silence. I lived alone on the ocean for a year and a half. Then my journey delivered me to deeper silence and less people. I ended up in Mount Shasta. It was in Mount Shasta when the first book was finished, and submitted to the publisher.
At that time, I knew I was finished writing. Part of me felt complete. Like "my life"s work is now all written; like did I just do this? Am I really done writing books?" You cannot comprehend that feeling when it is what you seem to be "doing" your entire life. I was going to be a published author after writing five books.
Then I went on a cruise and I knew to my soul it was not a vacation. It was not. It was the beginning of a pregnancy I did not see coming. I wrote another book in under three weeks.
The first is a four-part series called, "Only Beautiful Things Happen to Me." They describe in great detail my spiritual journey as it began over seven years ago. This first book is written to my sister. We are incredibly close, but we haven't been near each other in a very long time. She hasn't experienced the new me at this energetic space. I had to find a way to explain to her not only what I am, but how I got here. It was the only thing I could do to help her understand why I am amazing now, but so different from the sister she knew growing up.
Moving to Mount Shasta completed the journey. It was here where I stopped taking all medication and stepped into life living full time as heaven in a skin-bag. I have no other way to describe it. I live in the fifth dimension all the time. Once here, you know what is real. Life is so amazing. I've lived all of this so I can show you the way. We don't have to experience any form of misery. We have our life and our plan at our fingertips. We choose where we go and how we feel. This book will show you the steps I took. Once here – the search is over. That's when I knew there is a destination.
After the first four books describe my expansion, the book I was born to write came through me. On March 29th, I woke up screaming and shaking. I was shown why I was sent to Maui on August 6th, just two days before the fire. The vision tied everything together. It explained why I went on the cruise seven months after Hawaii.