Who Is Me?

When I first saw Chief White Cloud I believed he was one of my guides. But as I started to get past life images I realised that that he and the other guides I saw were actually the people I’d been in other life times. I would see different guides at different times of my life or with different circumstances I was facing. Chief White Cloud was the one I saw the most. He seemed to be my main guide. These guides of mine would step into the fore when there was a situation for me to experience or there was a characteristic from one of my previous lives I wished to use. There was an Aboriginal guide I would see when I needed strength, an Indian woman when I needed comforting and so on. When I had completed my lessons from a particular life, I would have an integration with the guide who would then become part of my central core, rather than a separate entity. Once this integration had taken place I generally didn’t have any more issues connected to that particular life. I have not had the integration with Chief White Cloud yet, suggesting I have more work to do on that lifetime. Over the years I have seen more than 20 of my previous lives. Like the Indian life, all of these have connected with my current life. I have been astounded at the similarities that exist between my past and present. And it is not just me. In my work as a therapist, I have seen people time and again taken back to other lives that suddenly make perfect sense of the situation they are currently facing. The process of uncovering my past lives was a long one. Some of my past life images came through meditation alone or from meeting people connected to a former life. In each case I was not given a great deal of information at one time. In fact it reminded me of the childhood jigsaw puzzles where there are four or six pieces that make up a picture. I was only given one element at a time with sometimes years in between the next or final piece. Each piece was a snippet of a previous life and like a jigsaw each was placed in position until the jigsaw was completed and a clear picture of that lifetime emerged. Often there was more than one puzzle taking shape at the same time. If the piece was from a different puzzle that was put separately until more bits were added to make up that picture. The majority of the lives I recalled were unpleasant or I died in unjust ways. I would like to think I had more happy and joyous lives along the way, but perhaps I have not recalled those lives because there was no work to do once I had passed. I have come to realise that our journey in life all about purifying our souls. By this I don’t mean to insinuate that our souls are anything other than perfect. But by purification I mean we strive to reach a state where our thoughts and actions are only those of love, joy and light, and our whole being radiates pureness. We work towards this state by forgiving and healing our pasts. I have needed to do a tremendous amount of forgiving both in this life and my previous lives. I have needed to forgive myself for holding on to bitter feelings and resentments and I have needed to forgive other people for the things they have done to me or the betrayals or injustices they have been part of. During the course of our lives we are given plenty of opportunities to forgive. Many of the people who feature as both our loved ones and our foes have shared other lives with us. As I began to heal myself I found that one of the best ways to do this was to follow an issue that was currently bothering me back to its earliest connection, which was usually from an incident that happened in childhood. Once I reached this initial trauma I would have a release. And once I had the release, the issue I had gone in to address would disappear and I would no longer react to that situation. Often I would go further than childhood and into a previous life. This was the way that I gleaned most of my past life knowledge. I started to see that I was repeating patterns in this life that I had in my other lives. These patterns and beliefs from my past were so strong that I was recreating them in this life, starting with those initial childhood traumas. As children we don’t have the skills to deal with situations that occur for us, with issues seeming far larger than they would to an adult. Maybe someone growled us unfairly or stole our school lunch. We hold onto the anger, hurt, injustice or whatever the emotion is that we have been unable to deal with. As we go through our lives these early traumas trigger other situations for us. But we get over each event and life goes on. By the time we reach middle age we have clear patterns emerging in our lives, often the same patterns we had in our previous lives. And all of these stemmed from those first instances in childhood. Eventually, as adults, if we haven’t started the journey of self-healing, we find ourselves getting sick or living a life that flows from one major drama to the next. Nowadays, if I find myself reacting to anything at all, I know there is work to do. I follow the emotion from my current issue back to childhood or to a past life for the emotional release. When I do the clearings in this way I am healing all the pains I have brought with me into this life and I am healing all the swathes of pain I have created along the way. And ultimately I am purifying my soul as I replace the negative feelings with those of love and forgiveness. The more clearings I do, the easier it is to stay in the present. There is less to pull me off course. A lot of people don’t understand the concept of revisiting their pasts. They think it is wrong to dwell on things that have already happened. Many of these same people spend a lot of their energy trying to stay in the present. However I have found that when I do my work on the past, then the issues that were there just disappear and I no longer react to the situations that I did before doing this work because there is no longer anything to trigger events in my present anymore. Thus there is no need to try and stay in the present for I simply am in the present. This is so much easier to do when all traces of the past have been removed, for it is the past that interferes with our journey forwards. The more work we do on ourselves the more peaceful and settled our lives become. Some people liken healing to peeling off layers of an onion but when one heals in this way it is more like removing whole wedges at a time. Our childhood traumas are our gifts to healing the traumas from our previous lives or the aspects we as souls have chosen to work on in this lifetime. There will be people who don’t believe in reincarnation or who do believe in other lifetimes but are unable to access their previous lives. That is fine because we actually don’t need past life knowledge. As I’ve already explained, we get a sample of everything we need to deal with from our pasts in childhood. Therefore, if we heal our childhoods and forgive those who have wronged us or if we recognize our patterns and do the necessary healing and forgiveness around these we are automatically healing the issues we have brought through from the past. There will also be people who will argue that our issues and our patterns are ones we have inherited from our forefathers genetically. This could well be so, but I believe as souls we choose the families we wish to be born into, so I’m sure we choose families where the characteristics they have match the experiences we need to complete our forgiveness and healing on a soul level. I have also found over the years that when I have done my work on an issue, including the forgiveness and the integration, then often the other people involved or I move away. An example of this is the people I shared the Indian life with. Every one of us moved on to different jobs after I had finished the work on that lifetime. Another thing I have found doing past life work is that