Remembering Love
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I sit outside the Neurosurgeon's office and watch the seconds tick by on my watch. I concentrate on the watch dial as I don't want to look up and make eye contact with the other people waiting in this lobby. My stomach is churning and each sip of coffee seems to be adding gas to the fire that is raging. As is my nature, I am early for the appointment. I look down again at my watch. Tick, tick, tick, the minutes keep moving on. It is almost an hour when the nurse appears and calls me into the office. I know that it will take all my fortitude to not cry. I glance at the list of neurosurgeons operating from this office as I walk through the glass door, following the nurse. "I am afraid that I do not have good news" the Neurosurgeon says looking directly into my eyes. I feel my heart start to race and my hands get clammy. I wipe my hands down my pants and grip my knees. I am scared to grip the arm chair as I am certain I will leave a wet mark on the leather. I look down at the floor. I swallow trying to hold back the emotion. I am not sure that I can speak. I want to erase his words. I want to turn back the hands on my watch. I look back up at the doctor and the expression on his face told me what I didn't need to hear in words. All i could do was cry.
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Life is precious and all too often we take for granted that we have tomorrow but tomorrow is not promised to any of us. This is a true story. Wendy Portfors knew her life had changed in an instant when her husband suffered a stroke and the underlying cause was an inoperable tumor. Wendy has written from her firsthand experience. This is an intimate and brutally honest account of her journey through her husband's diagnosis, to Caregiver and ultimately to being widowed. After losing her husband of 38 years Wendy's world spiraled out of control. She bears her soul into her struggle to overcome loneliness, isolation, feelings of abandonment and the darkness of depression. It captures the heartbreak of loss and Wendy's slow and painful journey from unimaginable grief to healing. We will all experience loss in our lifetime. Wendy shares her insights from her personal experience aimed to help others navigate through loss to healing. Whether you are a Caregiver, grieving a loss or supporting a grieving person this book is for you. Wendy's hope is that by reading 'Remembering Love' you will find strength, understanding and compassion for life's passages.
About the Author
Author Wendy Portfors has written from her personal experience about being widowed and the long and difficult journey from grief to healing. Wendy is a member of the Writers Foundation of Strathcona County. She lives in Alberta Canada with her dog Hayley and cat Toes.